thank you

This week was much better.

Obviously I could’ve done better but still thankful for the process.

  1. I need to trust in how God sees me and move closer toward Him.
  2. All it takes to change my perspective on God is shift myself just 1 degree to see things differently.

Just leaving this here for future reference.

Because you know, I should really listen to my own words once in a while.

thank-you-GOD 🙏🏽


they don’t know yet

Don’t be butthurt about this.

They don’t know what they’re doing yet so if you need them to be the staff that you need them to be then wait for them.

There’s no other solution.

Wait it out and pray with faith in the meantime

You did this to DHY back then too.

Are you gonna do the same shit and get fired in three years?

I thought not.

Get your shit together jongdae, you have bigger things to get ready for..

old friends

Had a chance to catch up with an old friend

7 years overdue

We picked up right where we left off and it was so beautiful to take our sweet time catching up

It wasn’t intended but it happened and now I want more.

Friendship is so important – I really took it for granted..

Passion doesn’t communicate

But it does – to friends.

When I think about just how much my life was made harder and harder by people who confused passion for just cause – I always found myself butting heads with people who wanted to be right but they never wanted to get it right

But talking to my friend, I got really passionate and he just sat there listening

Maybe he’s just super patient with me out of love and grace

Or maybe passion does communicate

Timing is everything

How does one accurately gauge timing?

Today, my passion communicated clearly – It was what my friend needed and wanted during this season in his life.

I saw that and I addressed it directly.

We connected, it happened – and the timing happened without our effort or concern

Is life always this random?

I know that a moment can’t be manufactured but damn.

Today, passion communicated and I couldn’t be more thankful.

But why are moments like this so far and few between?

More questions for another day…



sometimes we all need a break

from people, from things – sometimes a palate cleanser is necessary

I think there are wise ways to go about it, there are also selfish ways to go about this.

And yes nobody is perfect so however your need for a break manifests, just take it

take a walk and figure things out

I am of the opinion that achieving balance in our lives cannot be a wholly pleasant experience. Sometimes pruning is needed – I ask myself often, who or what do I need to cut out when I feel bogged down.

And oftentimes, God makes that list of potential things I need to cut.

I probably don’t have the courage to actually do it – there are too many instances where I was tempted to cut the big man out. And of course, I’ve tried.

I’m not sure cutting God out is such a wise course of action: I’ve seen and experienced too much. But I think it’s healthy to question where you are and where you are trying to go. Yes, I fully believe that it is essentially healthy to question our pursuit of a higher being and understanding.

I bring this up because a dear friend of mine is in need of this break.

rest easy friend, I’ll be here waiting



Our struggle is not with the problem itself but the struggle is often all about what the problem says about us..

I’ve repeated this in sermons and counseling moments over and over.

I know what it means, you know what it means

But do we really?

Problems, as they usually are, require and thus they are met with a simple solution. But it’s the nuance required to tackle these problems that always give me pause. A very frustrating, swear-inducing moment of pause.

I’m a “let’s hammer this fucking nail already” kind of guy.

Most problems require more delicate approaches.

So most of the time, in my hesitation from being stuck between what I want to do versus what’s typically required of me, I find myself seeking clarity more often than not.

If you can’t tell by now, there’s some shit going down at the moment.

 what am I really worried about?
  • I can’t manage every problem around me, and I still try anyway.
  • I’m all about the ends justifying the means
  • I’m angry and rash – this has never worked in my favor
So how can I fix this?

One evening I offered this question to my mother seeking some sage advice.

She simply replied:

hey dummy, just pray

thanks mom

I should really get this tattoo’d somewhere