I think I’m spiraling I think I’m having a crisis in identity. Maybe even my calling. Frankly, I sit here typing because I need words to express how I feel. I just don’t have it. I don’t have the mental reach. At least not for now. Increasingly and more frequently, I have been growing frustratedContinue reading “calling”
Category Archives: thinking out loud
walking around
walked around with intention today just wanted to spend an hour taking pictures I could still use more practice.
event planning
Our church’s English ministry ran a drive-thru ministry event. Every year churches around the country gather the children to put on festivities that include worship, craft, snacks and great skits and musical. At our church, it’s a spectacle like you’ve never seen. The budget, the manpower and the sheer planning that goes into every littleContinue reading “event planning”
reach
I will sit here and let my mind wander because I can’t fight these moments anymore not always, but these pauses are rough penetrating moments of loneliness evoking despair and consuming my thoughts unreachable
lacking
What is the value of feeling fulfilled? Is it worth your everything? I’ve been feeling the highs and lows of my emotions in rather sharp turns and nothing has been helping to abate these swings. It’s a bit uncomfortable at times. But that’s my word lately. I feel like I am.. I feel.. lacking It’sContinue reading “lacking”
onward
There’s still trepidation. careful optimism but still unknown. I will be bold But I still fear I need prayer
okay
Not ready But let’s go
prayer still
The peaks and valleys of the sharing and praying brings rhythm to the whole ordeal. The prayer of the youth is unmatched in its brilliance but like a hot burning fire – it quickly burns out. The tears of joy and pain – reconciling and forgiving one another – emotional responses to the constant soundtrackContinue reading “prayer still”
lately..
So needless to say, I’ve been.. adjusting to everything going on. But while I finally have a moment to myself I thought I would center myself with some prayer and meditation before I, you know, speak at a retreat. I’ve been experiencing the process of working through my emotions these past few weeks but theContinue reading “lately..”
spiral
every swipe to scroll through the feed every tap to swipe through each story every conversation asking me how things are going It’s pretty bad right now I miss it
